Sunday, September 04, 2011
When Troy & I decided to stay together & work things out, I had said I wanted a handfasting or vow renewal to mark the occasion, maybe this year, for our 20th anniversary. I had to face the facts that it's never really going to happen & that none of that is very important to him. It makes me very sad, I really wanted it. I've always said that "someday" we'd have a real wedding, and here we are, 20 years down the road & it's never going to happen. I know it isn't the wedding that matters, but the marriage, but you read all of the celebrity wedding news, hear about all of your friends & such getting married & go to their weddings & it hurts a bit. I'll get over it, but it's probably going to take awhile.