Monday, March 23, 2009

Crazy Days

I swear, parenting ought to get easier when you're finished raising them, shouldn't it? That hasn't proven to be the case around here lately. First we have the case of the disappearing coffee grinder & of course, no one is taking responsibility for it. I got it out the other day to use it, and there was a white powder inside of it. I figured it was dust or something, since it had been left open in the china cabinet, so I cleaned it out & ground up my beans. The next morning, I got up, and looked at it & it had the weird white powder in it again. I took the lid off, set it down & planned to ask Erin about it. I left with Dawn & when I came back, the whole thing was gone. I asked him about it, he got defensive & I dropped it. It reappeared that night while we were gone, mysteriously clean.

Tonight, Rhi was suicidal & I had no answers for her. I felt like I was dismissing her, but I just didn't have the words, so I called Troy & he talked her down. We had a few more scares when she wasn't answering her phone or text messages, but that got cleared up, too. I think she's doing okay now, or at least I hope she is.

I certainly earned my bed tonight, let me tell you. It may not be a sleep number bed, but it's mine & it's calling out to me now, so I think I'll answer the call & head off to slumberland. Goodnight!

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Refreshing Change

Last night, the meeting with the Grove was a nice change of pace. We had gotten used to being the only women at any meeting of our troth, and that nothing of any spiritual importance really happened very often. Last night we actually spent time talking about what's coming up in March & what we plan to to do & celebrate & how we want to do it.

There we just as many women there as there were men, there was food, wine, good conversation & a lot of planning. Griefs from the past few month with the troth were aired & none of us were belittled for our feelings or made to feel that we had no right to them. There was no talking about how fat we thought we were & how we were looking for a new weight loss pill to make us fit into what we perceive as the perfect size, who we are was good enough & just fine. It felt really nice.

So many times, the meetings or drum circles with the troth end up just being about the music or the alcohol & nothing else happens or matters. That's okay & all, but sometimes I feel like I want my religion to matter more & be the reason I'm out there. I'm really excited about the full month next week & the ritual we have planned!

Busy Week

I don' think I've done a whole lot of relaxing since this week started & quite frankly, I'm already tired & it's only Tuesday. Sunday we went over to Dawn & Jason's (I know it sounds like they're a couple, but they're actually cousins, who share a house) for breakfast, bright & early. We sat around there for awhile, eating, chatting & stuff like that. At around 11:30, Dawn, Jason, Davy (Jason's brother), Troy & I all headed for St. George so we could go to St. George & then out to lunch.

I got 3 books; Dexter in the Dark, The 2009 Magical Almanac & something on hauntings in Ireland & some really cool quote magnets that were on clearance. Dawn got some herbals and the same almanac I got & a set of oracle cards. Jason got his first set of tart cards & Troy & Davy got nothing. Lunch was goo, but way too much food. I didn't even feel like eating dinner. We came back to town & Troy worked on Jason's computer for a few hours & got it running again. We spent the rest of the evening playing "Scene It!"

Yesterday, my laptop decided to crash, so Troy tried to fix it without reformatting, that pretty much took all day. I went to a Grove meeting with Dawn, Morgan & Jason, and Troy stayed home to keep working on it. I got home at about 10 & we decided it needed a full reformat, so we did that & finally got to bed at about 12:30.

Rhi woke me up today at 8:30 texting me & so I gave up trying & then she stopped texting me. At least she wasn't asking me to buy her something like underwear or Hamilton watches for a change, she was just reminding me that I have to take her to an appointment tomorrow. Today I need to go & buy a money order & a manila envelope & get Erin's underage alcohol consumption workbook in the mail. When Troy gets home, we have to pay the rent & car payments.

Thursday, I have to go to court with Dawn in the morning, then I ought to be okay & clear for the rest of the day, I hope. Friday, she & I are going to the health food store to see what herbs they have in the bulk section & to look at their essential oils. Saturday night is drum circle with the troth, so as you can see, I'll be running every day this week.

I need a nap.